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Heart Shaped Sin

 

A heart
A small space
With a large perspective

Fickle or true
It is all that defines us
Everything for me, will always be you

This heart shaped sin
I am the boy on a string
Is it me or is it him

Copyright 2015 Peter Anstiss

 

So I have finally found enough time to gather a collection of words together and format them in such a fashion that they might be called an Ebook. ‘Heart Shaped Sin’ is available at nearly all major online retailers including, Apple IBooks, Kobo, Barnes & Noble and SmashWords. (Where you can pick up a copy that is Kindle compatible).
There are plenty of examples of the kind of thing that I write on my blog so if you fancy a read of twenty five poems of dark love and bright hope then take a peak beyond the barriers of a very small payment.  🙂

 

 

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Fallen

Another thread is cut
Like scissors shearing cloth
All that binds is falling
It can’t be stopped

So little holds us together
A constant emptying of forever
Washing away upon the tide
A moon upon the slide

Celluloid burning memories
Those eyes that no longer see
Spinning sounds, thrashing art
Words so rarely bleed

But your words bled for me
Echoing wants and needs
Filling moments when it rained
In the darkness of my pain

© 2016 Peter Anstiss


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Christmas Kisses

You looked good in that blue dress
It reminded me of Christmas kisses
And shared wishes
That somehow got lost for us

Your smile takes me back
Miles and years
To a time
When you washed away my fears

All those perfect moments
I keep them in my heart
You were a new kind of happiness
A new start on a healing path

I miss the tangle of your tresses
And that pillow talk smile
That fearless kindness
The light you shone on me for a while

The brightest light of any love
But I was so scared
Of the shadows that I cast
I was still chained by things I hid in the past

I had been a shadow before
For way too long
It was nothing you did wrong
My belief was so thin
That shadows just weren’t my thing

But you were…
A wisdom that came too late
A seed that took too long to germinate
A lost friend, a cruel fate

© 2015 Peter Anstiss


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A Christmas give away

He thinks she would laugh
With shock and horror
At the Christmas gift
He chose to never give

Casual words
Are dangerous things
Who can tell
What insecurities they can bring

So how do you slip
So easily
From a man on the verge
To words never spoken, never heard

He still can not say
Some words never find their way
Some secrets
Are only for the grave

Those damaging voices
Those limited choices
Callow with youth
Someone else’s truth

His mouth moved, but found only lies to say
Presents wrapped so carefully
Disposed of so creatively
From Christmas Eve to Boxing Day

A Christmas give away…

© 2015 Peter Anstiss


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Three wishes

I wish…
My heart would stop aching for you
It’s not as if these lips
Can speak the truth
Or repeat that kiss
I wish…
The world would stop reminding me
Of everything about you
All the things I miss
All the time we spent as two
I wish…
My mind would stop turning
It’s not as if answers can come
That time can recalibrate
Like the past can be undone

Do you wish?

© 2015 Peter Anstiss


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The midnight runner

Under the watery midnight moon
An injured runner gently jogs
Is it because I never sleep
That I am pounding lonely streets
Or because I am a loon
Or the fact that no one will see my gloom
If my broken body drifts back out of tune
If my muscles are truly ruined
Now I may be broken, but I am not defeated
There are dreams and hopes yet completed

#running

© 2015 Peter Anstiss


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Winter Love

If you need…

I can be your winter love
You can reach for me
Whenever you are dark
I will hold you close

When the green of summer
Turns to falling leaves
When no one understands your needs
I could help you grieve

I know everything about falling apart
It means I can put it back together
If you find you ever
Need such things

When the rain falls
We can all shine like new
I live and linger
For moments such as these

They blot out all the times
I have fallen and been left to bleed
Maybe happiness
Is not the flower of my seed

But I still live and breath
I still love and hope
I still laugh,
And joke

Though dark rivers
May roll me out to sea
I will always wash up
On the beaches of your need

If you need…

© 2015 Peter Anstiss


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Stolen Smiles

Does it make me a bad person
Because it hurts
That someone else gave you back
The smile
I never wanted to take away

© 2013 Peter Anstiss


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The October sky and the long shadow hunter

The sun falls so rapidly
From the October sky
Leaving me amongst the leaves
Hunted by shadows, craving sleep

But sleep so rarely comes
In shadow I am undone
And your memory seeps in
To remind me of my sin

Time slides by so relentlessly
It takes its toll on our skin and our souls
Even those that are closest
Can forget the salves that sooth me

Our endless spending
Is matched by our obsessive working
Always rushing, speeding,
when we should be walking, talking

Could you stop and hold me?
Surrender a single moment
But instead you forget us
Losing faith, breaking trust

© 2015 Peter Anstiss


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Ocean Magic

I walk the darker paths
While she weaves darker arts
Whatever her hold is
She is what I want to breath

She tips her potions
Filling my oceans
Her rain
It can fall on me, let it fall on me

I am lost In the way she moves
She is a beautiful battle to lose
She is the flesh I want to press
Strip away my soul, strip away her dress

Maybe this magic is all mine
Maybe I never cross her mind
Could it be I fell through time
To drift along the seams, to be lost in dreams

© 2015 Peter Anstiss